We are taught so much about loyalty and covenant in our walks with Christ with many view points of what that looks like. Covenant is about commitment and the boundaries of that commitment. Because of the various opinions this can make it confusing sometimes for many. There are so many that have no commitment, that go to and fro just seeking to be self-satisfied. To be fed and feel good in what they call serving the Lord.
They do not pick up their cross and follow Jesus but instead pick up their forks and go house to house looking to be content doing what they feel is right in their own hearts. If you are reading this I do not believe you are this kind of person but one who is really trying to be loyal and committed to Jesus, yet are feeling torn and not knowing why.
If you are one of these people who are not committed, the good news is you can repent and get right with God. Being Born Again does not mean that how you live is right in God’s eyes, that is what I mean by getting right with God. A believers lifestyle is one where we are always repenting, meaning we are constantly changing the way we think and act to align with what God says is right, not what we want to be right.
I want to address a virtue that I believe Satan uses to oppress many of God’s people and that is loyalty. Many are loyal and faithful servants who have made a commitment to serve where they are but yet in this season God is saying let go and go to where I will show you. Abram when called by God was not told where he was going to go, he just had to go.
Many of God’s people are being called out of the traditional wineskins of what we call ministry to be part of a greater movement, a reformation that is something so great no one has seen it before nor can define it. If you sense you are one of these people. I want to present some keys one must ask yourself if you believe you are being called out to be able and check your heart. Ask yourself why am I leaving?
- Am I leaving because of frustration, or that this other ministry has a more anointed teacher?
- I do not feel fed here?
- I do not agree with the teachings here?
- They do not support me here?
While these are noble thoughts and can be true, they are not the reason why you leave any place. The only reason why you leave a place that God sent you is because God is telling you it is time to leave. What I have experienced, and I know many reading this can identify with, is that when God is calling you to go some where it can be hard to let go. The reason is that we do not know where we are going and we feel that to leave we must have a reason to leave.
If I am to meet with my Pastor or leader to let them know my time is up what will I tell them? What will they think of me? Am I being disobedient? Am I going against the will of God? These are the questions I went through and believe if you are not asking these questions you may not be hearing God to move. We must be willing to really examine our hearts and be honest. I have seen many people leave, some because they wanted to leave and others because God told them it was time to leave. The key in leaving is this humility and honor even if the leaders do not agree. I have seen many called to leave not leave right and it hindered them in the next place they went too.
I personally have had to go to leaders and tell them I was called to leave after the Lord told me. It was not easy and most did not think I was hearing God. I even had one man of God tell me I would be cursed because I was joining a Church pastored by a woman. I spent almost seven years being mentored by that women of God and would not be the man of God I am today if I had listened to what he had said.
There was a time when I wanted to leave that ministry because I thought it was not teaching me the deep things of God. There were other ministries teaching the word at a deeper level and flowing in the gifts of the Spirit in ways I longed for. One day I believed God told me to leave. I went to my Pastor and received permission to leave. In the process of leaving the Lord made it clear to me I was not to leave. I had to humble myself and admit to the leaders I was wrong. So I understand both sides of this process very well. And can relate to most people who go through this process. So I understand loyalty and the pull one can have in desiring to be faithful yet being called to something one cannot explain.
When I left the Lord always connected me with someone to help me in the process. And while I may not have been part of a local assembly in some of the process, I do have great relationships with leaders in whom I submit too even though I am not even in their city.
Let’s talk about loyalty a little. Remember we are to be loyal to God, family and relationships not institutions or creeds. Loyalty and commitment can be a strength and a weakness because once you make it is a vow and your soul is knit to what you speak. So we have soul ties in what we commit to and that is why we feel torn. I want to use a man of God from the Bible that will illustrate this and what happens to us when we do not let go and go with God.
Jonathan was the son of Saul, the heir to the throne of Israel. His legacy was to be king and to help move Israel into the next realm of glory. Because of his father’s sin against God Jonathan lost that right to stay on the throne. God then anointed David to be the next one to move Israel into a new realm of glory. Jonathan knew he had a right to the throne in mans eyes but somehow he caught the vision of God’s heart. He and David became covenant brothers at a very deep heart to heart commitment. Many teach on this relationship on how a covenant friendship is to look like.
This amazes me that he knew he could take the throne, but knew David was called by God as the next king. He chose to let go of the a position and align with the next move of God, he even defended and protected David. He saw what God saw yet his loyalty, the strength of his commitment kept him from I believe fulfilling his god given destiny. I believe that he could have let go of serving his father, the old wineskin to serve the new move of God.
But because of his loyalty his soul was torn and though he saw the new move and validated and protected it, Jonathan could not let go of the old to embrace and serve the new. He could not let go of tradition, that which no longer had the grace of God, and join arms with what God was doing fresh. Because of misplaced loyalty Jonathan lost his life serving the old move of God.
As I said earlier many who are reading this have been called out of a system that you have committed to embrace a new move of God. A move that cannot be yet defined or explained. You feel like you are drying up on the vine. Remember that feeling like you are drying up is not an excuse to leave, but if the lord is telling you it is time to go, you must go. You must in an honorable way share your heart with the leader and tell them why you are leaving. You do not have to justify to them why you are leaving. This is not a move for you to go into a cave, a place of isolation that will take you into despair and depression. God will connect you with other like-minded believers to help encourage and build you up.
The Lord has a body of believers in the earth, a family, tribe that we all have been assigned to. There are no lone rangers in God’s army. Jesus is right now assembling an army, not a fellowship. He is calling warriors together that will see communities, cities and nations shift. And while there will be fellowship and sharing and breaking of bread. The goal is not the fellowship it is the assignment. Fellowship is just part of the process of accomplishing the will of the Father.
God blessed Adam, male and female, gave them an assignment then they started a fellowship. The purpose of intimate fellowship is always the assignment God has given the leaders, it is not a social club, it is a militant family. A family willing to war and die for God and each other. That their comfort on this earth is not the goal but seeing God’s glory displayed in the earth, and the liberty in Christ secured for the future generations.